So I shopped!

So I shopped,  the excuse or shall I say "trigger" was getting stuck  in the house for 4 days while Elaine recovered from a kidney infection.  I bought the damn boots!  Dark brown Ralph Lauren riding boots. Amazing boots that will last a life time. Timeless but I sure as hell did not pay cash.   First I  reached out,  I  called and text a few family members with varying responses. My brother said, "Buy one"  My mistake was allowing myself to  "just look" I looked and looked and became obsessed with the damn things. I thought about them in Yoga, I talked about them  to people at work, they were in and out of my basket 100 times. Keep in mind I have already bought and returned 2 others pairs I thought were perfect. If I do not love them - they go back. I tried to  look at them in the store but they are not available on the west coast. Then I realized they were no longer available in black. Surely they were going to go away. Once I completed the transaction    I felt as if a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. I felt free. I had a physiological response of pure joy almost like an orgasm ( I really like to shop)  Weird- nope, after all I am a junky! I got my fix. A big one,  one if it were drugs could cause an overdose ! But with the ability to rationalize most anything  free shipping  and 20% off with free returns  I could not resist their  gravitational pull any longer. So I can return them when buyers remorse hits. Or not.  Since I started this blog this was my first big  shopping "oops"  I  know for a fact that when I get stir crazy I go a bit crazy in an attempt to be somewhere else. I guess. I am sure there is some sort of diagnosis for my neurosis.  It will require a restructure of my payment plan but I think it should not hurt me too much.  In the mean time I have not  "cheated" on my diet at all.

Until I f'up again...

PS- Elaine is much better, fever is gone and we have her on the proper antibiotics. Monday we will back in the grind all over again