Here it is Sunday morning and I feel pretty good. Put my Yoga clothes on and ate a light breakfast will hit up the 11:30 yoga class and sweat it out. I am feeling and looking a a bit better than the scale tells me I should. I guess this is a benefit and curse of exercise. I am told that this is true of the beginning of any program. I am at the beginning, I need to remind my self of this. Writing about it every day makes it seem like I should be further into all of this. I am inpatient, I know this, it has always been my tragic flaw. But with building muscle and losing fat the scale may not show dramatic lose every week. Thursday I will get measured and it will show all my hard work. It better or I will have to seriously look at my approach to all of this.
Went to the House of Prime Rib last night and all I could tell the waiter when he checked in with us was that I have been eating mostly Jenny Craig for 7 weeks and I was in beef heaven. Good times with good people. I am thankful for my friends and family. I am not going to feel bad about this I refuse. It was planned it is life and I did not eat till wanting to die.
Saturday was stolen from me. My plans went to the side when some of my daughter's friends came over. We did have fun I brought them out to get their nails done but due to having to switch around some "care giving tasks I was unable to get to the yoga studio. I will go today and I am afraid of how it will go because I am still tired and probably a bit dehydrated. I will go anyway and just do the best I can.
... Just got back from class. I was the strongest I have ever been! I made the commitment to myself at the beginning of class that I would just do exactly as the instructor said and get my mind off my back knees and little head ache. I concentrated and focused on making small adjustments to the poses and felt amazing. Maybe Prime Rib is good for Yoga! My "cob webs" of tiredness from a big night out were gone within 3 poses. I did every single pose to the best of my ability and was not looking around at the poor folks I love to comment on! I was doing it I was a Yogi today. I did not cling to my water bottle for security or need to take any breaks. I tried to make my transitions fluid and did not fuss with my hair or clothes. I paid attention to my breath and I tried not to be bothered with the sweat in my eyes. I talked a little to instructor after and told her how strong I felt. She said I did well and looked happy about it. I probably had a big stupid smile on my face. I loved my Yoga today.
So I know that Jenny Craig is not the answer to a life time spent at goal weight ( once I get there) they have a maintenance program that includes eating real food. I have to keep my mind on that goal. The structure of the portion control and the routine of eating this way needs to reprogram my mind. Giving myself 1-2 meals on my own does help too and it is with the blessing of the weight loss counselor. I like some of the things that weight watchers offers- activity points , extra points, fitting in being social (drinking) in to the program but I am not strong enough for this right yet. I am the Queen of rationalizing things so right now I will commit to continuing Jenny Craig. Not sure why it is coming off so slowly but I will continue. I do not think I will write every day. I will just write when I have something to say. If the scale on Thursday does not show at lest 2 pounds I am going to have to look at the weekends and figure something else out of I will not hit goal in the spring.
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