"Jonesing for boots"

Got the call yesterday at work- the kid has a fever. This is where the routine goes out the window. No bike, no work,  no yoga,  just sedentary life with stress and an all too  accessible  credit card computer and kitchen. I want to shop! I really do!  With the temptation of "friends and family" Bloomingdale's discounts, mid day dash offers  at N.M. and popups  do I stand a chance?   I will admit I have looked at lots of shoes today. I do have a $25 certificate for Bloomingdale's and a gift card to Nordstrom but I want to use them in the store and try stuff on.   I do not want to use them now.  They are sitting right in front of me right now and I reserve the right to use them should this go on for a few days. Why the hell do I still want to buy something? Is  it a reward or something to just make this a better day?  Just something to make things better. Managed to stay out of kitchen but my true test will be in the evening. I cheated a little last night.  I am going to try and get to Yoga when Jack comes home but who the hell  knows when that is going to be.  This is where writing about it will help.

On a happy note, yesterday was the day that people noticed  I had lost some weight and that was while I was wearing scrubs.I now wear a large scrub instead of extra large. I can not wait to have my measurements done on Thursday. I had to cancel my massage appointment because Elaine is sick. I will not use this as an excuse to buy those damn boots that continue to sit in my basket even though I can get them for 20% off right now! Jonesing! I almost bought them but looked at my chart and realized it would ruin it one month into the entire thing started. I have to be stronger than that.

Things I can do in between taking temperatures and talking with Doctors.... I can clean, write, stretch at home,  talk on the phone, watch TV or read. I do have all  the Fall line catalogues I can look at them all again. I could play my guitar after I dust it off.  I could look at old comedy videos and wonder if that will ever happen again, I could brush the dogs, I could shop- no not shop,  I could eat for no reason - no not eat.

Good lord help me.