My Guru Kirstie Alley is a size 4!

I have talked about Kirstie Alley for years in my stand-up act. It seems we are always on the same track we gain and lose together, only she is unaware of the connection we most certainly have.  I love to make fun of it not her.  She is now a size 4 ( not exactly sure I am buying the size maybe an 8) .  What I am thinking is  "yhea for me."   It is like we are on a roller coaster together but she is sitting in front. We started losing together when she had just lost 5 lbs and was the spokes person for Jenny Craig. We failed that one together and both got fat again.  I feel bonded with her.  She is 60 and looks great I am taking everything positive out of this. I read some web comments posted under her picture and there are such haters out there.people who must be thin are so mean.  Negative people that try to sum her up in 2 lines. Most likely from people that have never had to  deal with weight issues.  I can only imagine the thick skin a celebrity needs to keep in order to feel OK with themselves. I thought I had to have a thick skin working with Dr's but the general public is ruthless. Not sure I could take it. No worries about  ever having to worry about that!  Size 4 I could only dream about that,  I really do not think that would be possible. unless I reconstructed my rib cage .  I would be so happy with being an 8-10. 

One thing I read in a very short article about Kirstie is that she had no idea  at her biggest what she looked like. I actually believe this, even with all her tabloid exploitation, I understand what it is like to feel one way and to  look another. It is weird how that can be the case. Right now I have lost some weight and feel pretty good, at least better, but when I put on clothes it is clear that there is plenty of work to do.

 The Panda, Pablo Sandoval  ( SF Giant currently hitting great ) is fat again.  Last season after winning the World Series he got a warning about his weight. At the start of this season he looked trim and the press noticed. I saw a "before and after"  photo comparing him today with the start of the season and he now  has a spare tire around his waist. It makes me wonder if there is hope, come on,   if you are a professional athlete with all the resources in the world and can not manage to keep off the pounds where is the hope for us regular chumps?  Maybe, like Kirstie,  he should go on dancing with the stars. I am more likely to be seen dancing  in Bars!

I won a bike race today. Not sure the other person knew it was a race but I won! Hurray for imagination. I am pretty sure it was Lance Armstrong's  ass who I kicked too.  I was riding up hill in Golden Gate Park at 6 AM on my way to work and realized I was gaining on this young thing. I went for it and pedalled as fast as I could and past her. She had passed me earlier so we were racing. I know it and I won.

Yoga update-  On Monday, I put my forehead on my knee. I did not think that possible. When it hit, and I really mean "hit"   I was first shocked and then I looked to get the attention of the teacher so I could get some positive reinforcement or a witness but I was alone in that moment and so damn proud. My forehead was finally hitting my knee and I did not have to have a mastectomy to do it.  I really wanted to share the moment with someone that knows how hard I have been working but she was looking into space while directing us in our practice.   At home, when I tried to show Jack  my new skill,  he said " stop or you'll hurt yourself."  True dat-  It was tough to recreate and just a moment,  a private moment of self satisfaction for me myself and I.

Loving the support I am receiving from the folks reading this!! It really helps to hear from you. I am surviving the constant bombardment of advertising and starting to get annoyed with department stores, I know where you are and know what you sell leave me the hell alone. When I am smaller I will buy new clothes- CASH.