Journey or excavation

Thanks for the advise- you know who you are!  There  are many things we are told not to do but do them anyway! One is weighing every day. Sometimes I make myself  weigh in just to motivate me for that day. It is at the risk of making me feel horrible but sometimes it does help me not cheat. . It is all such a head trip.

Motivation is in the mirror.   Seeing myself in 3 mirrors at the same time is too much Mary too much motivation. . I  got a glimpse of myself naked the other day I almost died. I am scared that once I uncover what lies beneath it will not be much better, after all it is older. I guess the entire thing is more of excavation than a journey. Or a journey through time. Sort of like when you go somewhere you have not been in quite some time and it kind looks the same but some things have been  majorly changed due to being developed. That old field is now a Trader Joe's or strip mall complete with nail saloons and Starbucks. That place where your ass stood was hit by a land slide or sink hole.  When I  do get there will I recognize it? 

Thinking back , the last time I was was somewhat happy with my weight was when I had my first date with Jack. We went  to the House of Prime Rib and the next date me made me pork chops the rest was history. Steady weight gain, had a kid more weight gain a stressful job more weight gain. And do not for get the Yo Yo dieting. Do not get me wrong I am hopeful that I will get to goal weight just curious what that might look like!

Back at it full force, feeling better, back to work. Rode the bike to work today and yesterday and went to Yoga torture before picking up the kid.  I really need to take a serious look at the activity part of this. I know I was ill last week and resting but when I was feeling better I did have moments of just being bored and wondering the house. I could have walked the dogs. I will try walking in the evening. My dad used to walk every night after dinner. Of coarse it was an excuse to smoke a cigar. Maybe if I start smoking I will have to go outside. Just kidding.

Temptation- the dreaded work pot luck. Indian food, lasagnas cookies brownies ... all in my bosses office. I was told I was a "lame ass"  for not participating but whatever I really do not want to blow it for a pot luck. I was very hungry today and thankfully had packed yogurt and fruit along with my Jenny Craig.  I did good!   I did not have one bit of that food because I do know that once I start I will not stop.

Instead of Brownies I get brownie points.

Move and plan.  The next 3 weekends there are challenges. 2 parties and one dinner planned at the House of Prime Rib! God help me!