Biked to work, worked, got off early , biked home and went to yoga. Did it all while being so damn tired. Also, forgot to pack fruit and milk today so food was scarce so I felt a little light headed in yoga today not as strong as I did the other day. I did not die though I managed to be hungry and not kill anyone. I did seem to look a bit different in the mirror. I weigh in tomorrow and I think it will be a good week. So I get a massage!
I have moments where inpatients takes over when I feel this is just not happening fast enough. Every ounce is a struggle. I am not hungry I am eating correctly and I am moving. Shouldn't it come off faster?? I know it should not as a 1-2 pounds a week loss is healthy and where I am. I am right on track. I have been on so many diets, have a BS in Exercise Physiology , A nursing degree , was a weight loss counselor and worked in a gym and it still a problem for me. It is not for lack of knowledge I just like to reward myself big and in the wrong ways.
I tried to have a conversation today with someone who did not watch TV, it was hard and it hit me I need to also read. I know about every real house wife of every city, I know everything about the girls from Jerseylicious I love to watch Chopped, Hell's Kitchen, Whale Wars, Deadliest Catch and manage to Keep up with the Kardatians and every show about home improvement and the price of old junk/treasures. I also have time to squeeze in The Giants and plan on watching football this year. Why don't the dogs get out more for walks? I guess I am too busy watching TV. I love it. It is how I relax, it is always on. When Jack is home every TV in the house is on at the same time. We are ugly Americans. Hawaiian shirts and all. Undoing this will be a long term goal I am not ready for that one. I am not perfect and never will be.
So I have to remind myself this trip I am going on is a long one and each day is basically 1 step towards the goal. Bills get paid once a month so I made a chart with all the bills , expected payment , expected decreased balance and have circled the months that have a bill that gets paid off. October will be my first month celebrating the zero balance of a bill. I will have paid off "Pay Later" a payment option when you use "Bookit.com" for trip planning. So a trip I went on earlier in the year will be paid and before they hit me with huge interest. If you pay it sooner and not later they reward you but they want you to really pay later and get killed with interest. I forced myself to look at all interest rates today in order to double check the priority in which I put the bills. I was surprised that Nordstrom Visa was not that bad compared to Pay pal so it did help. April-July I will be able to celebrate a bill being paid off each month. That is something to look forward to and to see it in writing was promising. I feel so responsible, a bit kooky but responsible. I also feel excited when looking at the numbers get smaller. As I pay off a bill I will put that money towards another increasing it's payment and getting it paid off faster and more efficiently. I also took the financial planner advise and decided to earn more money, as a nurse in the operating room, I can simply sign up for more call shifts. So I did. Maybe I will buy some Christmas gifts!- CASH.
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