This was one of those days that could have knocked me off track. Work was an ass kicker today. After work I yearned for the immediate gratification provided by buying something cool or by the comfort offered by a nice glass of wine ( or bottle really!) instead I was appeased by a nice tub, some jazz followed by a nap. I had a day at work that left me so damn tired it would have been easy to crash and burn. I didn't. I am proud of my self and am wondering where the strength is coming from. Maybe this blog knowing I have to report in.
I like to investigate options. I looked into liposuction and the gastric bypass/lap band. Sadly I would have had to gain weight for the gastric bypass and I was too fat for lippo. Left only the option of diet and exercise or the option of getting bigger and bigger or I suppose, doing nothing is an option I am back to diet and exercise. . The first step at Kaiser when looking into a gastric bypass is an informative class. I took this class. the funny thing is I was the thinnest person there. I may go back just to hang out when feeling poor about my self. They were nice people! My favorite part was when this one African American women in her 40's took one look at the possible complications and walked out of class in the first 2 minutes. She walked out in a hurry saying something about " bleeding infection stroke see ya" She was so strong so decisive and she amazed me. I sat through the entire thing knowing I would have had to gain weight and then lose 10% of my weight and still qualify. That is too much math but I was too wimpy to walk out!
The class showed video's of different people and what they chose to do. One lady chose not to have the surgery and chose to stop dieting and just be more active. She stopped gaining weight and still got to eat. She was sick of the yo yo diet where you end up gaining it back with interest. I thought that smart. The rules of the gastric bypass seem tough. If you do not follow the rules you get sick and or stretch your stomach out and gain the weight back. I have a lot of character but do not think I could make that radical of a change so fast. Maybe if I had diabetes and or high blood pressure but I do not. I am a very healthy fat chick. Other than the pain of arthritis and an achy back I am good to go.
Liposuction is really just for fine tuning and not to lose weight. KKathy Griffin said that she actually gained weight after liposuction because of the recovery time. They also "nicked " her ureter and she had a foley catheter for a while. It is really surgery not without complication. I looked into liposuction at the UCSF residents clinic a sort of extreme and affordable beauty school makeover. You get to have someone" learn on you" and they waive the surgeon fee. You have to pay for the hospital and anesthesia. I asked if there was an anesthesia residents clinic and they could "learn" too but sadly that is too dangerous. So this was not an option for me and I would know everyone in the room because this is where I work - forget it. I did go so far as showing my body to 2 residents ( I knew) and one attending surgeon ( thankfully that I did not know) As he pointed out the areas of good living or "flaws" I sort of just looked at the ceiling and day dreamed. Then when I was told there was noting they could do unless I lost weight it was settled, no easy way out. Back to diet and exercise. Also the recovery time is a huge consideration. Time I do not have. Can you get disability recovering from a tummy tuck? I do not think so. Also the Dr said they love extra skin and I did not have any extra I was using all my skin. The sweet resident whom I knew said " sorry it did not work out but you have really nice legs probably better than mine!"
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