PaRTY PARTY PARTY

Talked to some folks at work today that have read my blog.Thanks! It made me feel a little nervous. I wrote straight from the heart and that is how I am going to keep it, honest! It scared me a little but in the end I think is good as now I feel accountable not only to Jenny Craig.  The immediate gratification from writing this I believe will be a key to success. lets face it I am not new to this journey but now have a heightened sense of accountability. Good. keep me honest people. . Just like many of the early explorers  I am on a journey that has been attempted many times and just like those explorers I have  gotten  lost or hijacked by pirates also known as family and friends!.  Past diets felt as if I was holding my breath for as long as possible. Impossible to do as it is not compatible with living. I mean to be "good" I had to stay away from parties or just going out. I had to isolate. I am as social as it gets. I love to party and be around my friends and family. I was doomed from the start just equating being "good" with not being social because I  HAVE TO BE SOCIAL.It is a huge part of who I am.   The diet would last as long as I could stay alone. I live with my partner- my drinking partner, also known as my husband, so really when what you have in common with someone is drinking and eating  and you cut that off things get weird or hard and we are back to breath holding. How long can someone hold their breath?   When you  can no longer hold it and go to take that breath it is a big gasp. You compensate for a lack of oxygen.    Knowing this is the case. What to do? I can hear someone out their saying "moderation." I hate that word it is boring. I need to find a way to keep this fun.  I begged the weight loss counselor to team up with Skinny Girl Margarita. I think this could revolutionize the weight loss industry. Find a way to drink and to stay thin and I am in. What she suggested was to trade my starch and dessert for a diet coke and captain Morgan.  I think you get more than one for that trade. That is like trading someone like Barry Bonds for a little league player . My potato and cake for one drink - is she nuts?  O nuts I miss nuts.   It is Friday that is why this is an issue. I have been wired to party on Friday since High School. Actually going out tonight. As part of my Jenny Craig bargain session I agreed to try this again but have 2 dinners on my own these would also be the days I get to have some cocktails. "Activity keeps jumping into my brain as I write this. Increase activity that should help.   I had a coach in college - Brad Duggan at City College who loved to tie one on and he was athletic, he  said " for every beer run a lap." Could you see trying to do this at the same time? I see a drunk fat old lady sweating while she tried to drink the beer and run at the same time. You would spill way too much. I also have found that when I do drink that the next day the last thing I want to do is run. So I am thinking the kids on Jersey Shore have it down - go to the gym before you party! OMG that is the answer. 35 years of dieting and Just figured that out. I have learned something from Snookie.  Hot Yoga then a cold beer. All would be even with the universe. Maybe if I exercised more I could also have my potato. I will leave you  on this sad note. When my kid was in first grade her teacher was quite  perplexed that she did not know the word "waist" I was like " that is because in our house we call it our "tummy."  Wish me luck at dinner tonight!