So maybe on purpose I missed writing last week. It was crazy stressful combined with several meals out and a period that keeps threatening to come and then does not. Could this be the first indication of menopause? It sure as hell is not pregnancy. So this is also the first week since August that I gained -nearly 2 pounds. No worries just Thanksgiving coming up and a "stay cation" I will stay on program as much as possible, keep moving and keep my fingers crossed. Not exactly how I wanted to go into this week. But it is what it is.
This is scary this is the point where I have given up in the past. A little gain and a Holiday staring at me in the face. I am not. I still see that elusive life of the thin person in my head and have yet to achieve it on a consistent basis. I have moments that seem promising and others that make me feel that I have never been a skinny chick and what is the use.? Then I fit into my skinny jeans and feel on top of the world. "Feelings" that is what I am full of. The stress right now has blinded me too. The care of my daughter has not been this demanding in quite some time. I have had to apply for family leave to get everything done and will be broke. Paying stuff off will be put on hold until the Holidays are over. I can make payments but I will not make any head way.
Since losing a pound/week takes quite a bit and I have a week full of meals out and Holiday get togethers I will just try and keep moving. Got one dog out today will get the other one out and go to Yoga later. By the way I have not gone to Yoga in a couple weeks due to a heel spur acting up, lack of time and other excuses.... I am scared that it will hurt.
So the goal is going to be to stay positive, have a good time, probably not lose a damn thing this week and be OK with it. I am in this for the long hall and this is a vacation for me. Since I am not going to a fat farm for my vacation I imagine losing this week would be a miracle. I am going to enjoy it without hurting myself! Happy Holidays! I weigh in on Saturday. The New Year is around the corner and it holds promise and time to fulfill goals. I just want to be that active person, you know the old person in the life insurance ad smiling while water skiing and looking good. I also still want to be a rock star !
I have to tell you that once I got back from Cancun, I had to go see if I missed any of your posts...so I'm guessing you took a vacation from writing so I wouldn't miss anything! :)
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I think you & I are in the said period boat..I seem to be on an every other month thing now but have a cramping feeling on my lower right side on the "non-period" month around the time I should be getting it- so I think the body is going through it, but has not got the message that we're done. I have heard of one ovary giving up before the other...I'll ask my DR next month when I go for an annual visit.
I feel your pain with the holidays looming and an incredible amount of socializing- all around food and drink...and having just been in "party Cancun" for a week...well, not going in on this strong.
Stay focused and keep moving- if you have pain with yoga, try something that might work- stationary bikes or a spin class, maybe water aerobics..just some thoughts! And if you can get any strength training in your schedule that helps big time. You build muscle which in turn is going to burn more fat for longer periods of time...
hang in there!