Freedom

I feel a weird sense of freedom with weight watchers. It makes me happy. When I eat a non traditional "diet" food I cunt the points the best I can sometimes having to withdraw from the bank I write it down and move on. I can say with this freedom you sort of have a rope that you can tie around your neck. I feel like a kid that  is first allowed out after 1 PM. Sort of drown towards the "bad"  This week there was no real dramatic weight loss and I attribute it to that "freedom" I weigh in Friday so the results are still out but I know I did not gain anything. my danger areas are after work. I go straight to the kitchen in a sort of ravenous frenzy. I need to plan. There is that word again "plan" I really need to get to the grocery store. Jack went and I am fully stocked in chips and candy and steak.  I need to go!

The cafe at work. The cafeteria now has the calories on everything and the nutritional breakdown. Very helpful and often an eye opener. The best thing you can  do on weight watchers is to have fruit with breakfast and lunch. Salads are tricky. You really have to read what is in in . Some have up to 800 calories. Some are more modest at 350ish.

I have not been doing yoga. Maybe because of my recent obsession with the horse.  Also I just have not wanted to do it. I am not sure if all the sweating yielded more than dehydration. For whatever reason I just do not want to do it. Maybe because I stuck out like a sore thumb in that class. I think that I am the sort of person that likes to mix things up and I get bored very easily. I am still on my bike to work most days.

Drinking way less,  maybe one day a week. The points for wine is just crazy. I think they are trying to say healthy thin people do not drink a bottle of wine. I think??  Anyhow I feel pretty good.

Weigh in Friday. I would be happy with 1/2 a pound as I said I experimented with freedom this week.

A blog and some recipes from my friend Terry!

Doing it! Made breakfast for 3 kids and then we are off to saddle and tack up that horse and ride! Well I will be walking but will be out there doing it! Tonight Crab feed with good friends. This weight watcher thing is pretty cool. Lost 1 pound this week even after having an altercation with a pie which was more or less comforting after the niners gave a special early Christmas gift to the New York Giants. That took a lot out of me. I had such high hopes. I drank way too much did not eat my dinner and then announced to a house full of family" I am going to bed" I think everyone was in the same shape because I do not think anyone remembers.  Have a couple months before baseball season!  Have not been in the mood for yoga. Have been on my bike. Although one day I was unable to find my helmet at 6 am so I drove. It was hiding on the dining room table. .

The latest hook to get me to shop is the Nordstrom call to receive $50 off my next purchase if I meet with a personal shopper. This seems very dangerous! I did just get my statement and Christmas has had a huge impact on that statement! I rescheduled and will use some cash. I need bras as 2 combusted on me. A sort of pun. Not my usual thing but lets just say they let me down. That one was bad. OK I will stop.

About Weight Watchers. You get your daily points and a sort of bank for  when you go over. You can use a little every day or save them for altercations with pie. The hard part is that you need to know exactly how much you eat. So planning  is the key. Measuring is huge. I really still need a food scale. Like last night I made chicken but something went wrong and it was not edible so in a bit of hunger frustration and panic I dove into a bag of Doritos's. I decided to try and track them. Well they are on the list but I have not clue how many I ate. I counted it as 20 which was 9 points. So a 9 point Doritos dinner something punishable by death on Jenny is OK I think??? It is done and I had no alcohol so I think  all is well. Now Weight Watchers does give way too many points for booze. I think we need to lobby against it,  it is discrimination to the catholic dieter.  I have not had a glass of wine or anything since the game last week. That helps the dieting efforts a lot. For the record Patron with a float of Skinny Girl Margarita is GREAT. Little lime and it is perfection.! 

Christmas weight is off. I am one my way to new weight territory and I have a renewed motivation. I just need to get to the grocery store and plan and cook. Thanks Terry for the recipes!! I want to try the shrimp pasta Sunday dinner!

High fiber pasta cooked and drained.

Bfast sandwich:

Thomas English Whole Grain Light muffins (they are 100 cal and have 8 grms of fiber!)

1/2 C of egg whites

2 slices of low sodium ham

1 Slice of a tomato

1 wedge of laughing cow light

Mustard

avacado optional

I simply toast the english muffin and in a small bowl the size of the muffin I put egg whites, ham, tomato and cover with paper plate or napkin and cook for 2 min. Spread cheese on muffin, flip egg concoction on to muffin and put some mustard.

Go Lean Cereal

fresh or frozen berries

Non fat milk

Greek yogurt 0% fat

Berries

low sugar jam

Protein shake

Vanilla powder (mine is 80 cal from TJ's)

benefil fiber

1/2 banana

frozen strawberries or pineapple (any frozen fruit) Use it in place of ice.

no sugar added vanilla coconut milk (in carton)

Quesadilla

High fiber low carb tortilla (Mission brand)

scrambled egg whites or reg eggs

low sodium salsa

low fat cheese

non fat greek yogurt

avacado optional

Toasted English muffin

almond butter

Apple slices or Bananas

drizzle maple syrup

chopped nuts

Low fat tortilla chips

low sodium salsa

cottage cheese

Tortilla

chocolate chips (sparingly)

Just make like a quesadilla but it is dessert with like 12 grams of fiber and protein!

2 Alvarado (50 cal slice) flax Bread

lettuce

cooked turkey bacon

tomato slices

avacado\

1 laughing cow cheese wedge

Warm spinach salad

spinach

tomatoes

chopped hard boiled egg

cooked crubled turkey bacon

a little blue or goat cheese

warm the salad dressin in a small dish to boiling and pour over salad

The salad dressing I use is nonfat Balsamic dressing from TJ's.

Tuna salad

Canned white in water tuna

chopped celery

dill

chopped bread and butter pickles

chopped walnuts

a little dijon or aioli

lemon

sea salt and pepper

nonfat greek yogurt

do the same as above but omit the tuna,dill and pickles and add canned chicken and sliced grapes for chicken salad

In a large saute pan I place a small amount of chopped bacon or turkey bacon and saute (it is for flavor), add a pint of cherry tomatoes, sliced zucchini, chopped garlic, red pepper flakes and chicken broth or stock cook till tomatoes have all burst and reduce. Then add some, TJ's Roasted Red Pepper spread, frozen shrimp and add a bit more broth, salt/pepper and fresh basil. Cook until shrimp is done. You want it to be liquidy because this is your sauce but you want it to stand up to the pasta. Toss all together in a bowl add some fresh parm over the top.

I would make this for the President if he came to dinner, it is that good!

There is no oil, the shrimp is low in calories and high in protein, lots of fiber in the spaghetti, but keep your serving to 2oz. Tons of flavor! It is so good!

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Really today write about weight loss?

I saved all extra weight watcher point for the week for today! That is all I have to say other than this shit works and I am once again losing weight. Buying the horse this week. Have appointment with personal shopper on Thursday so no hope in that arena and I am writing again- jokes tha tis. Have band practice on Wednesday , begin selling GirlScout Cookies on Feb 13. Living my life!! GO NINERS

Great Day

With the Weight Watchers song stuck in my head I stay motivated even excited. I feel great already!Easting real unprocessed foods and Holiday weight almost gone, weather that is great but kind of scares me and the 49ers in the playoffs. I hope it is playoffs not playoff. I have a good feeling!  Life is good indeed. The IRS thing still haunts me but I sense a resolution with those bastard  soon.

Today I hit the grocery store and planned some yummy meals, got the dogs out and had a massage! Have a leg of lamb and roasted veggies ready to go into the oven. Had a half a sandwich and cup of soup for lunch, oatmeal fruit and nuts for breakfast and discovered a 20 calorie cream-cycle! I am not starving and I am satisfied. Bought some egg beaters and soy cheese and chorrizo for some sort of spicy egg thing I will create. Probably should have gotten a whole wheat tortilla! gotta go get that for a breakfast burrito. In one blog about food I can tell that weight watchers will  beat Jenny hands done for satisfaction. Jenny gets the weight off but the long term you really need real food.  Jenny got me into the groove. I have nothing against the program if you do not want to think it is a good one. I am ready to think!

I have not been to yoga in a while- wonder why? Getting ready to write the check for the horse. Now the horse is a "fixer upper." he needs to redistribute his weight just like me. He will work with a trainer 4 days a week ( on the program) he is getting fed good food and supplements and in no time I will get to ride him. I think we are doing a good thing for him. He is so sweet and deserves his new home. He went from being owned by "hillbillies" from the East Bay to the Peninsula so he has moved up in the world. He is getting good care and will make a lot of people happy. That happened a bit faster than I was thinking but I guess it was meant to be.

Fish ON!

We yell " fish on"  when, well,  there is a fish on the hook . Not too difficult to get. Well, the hook Dr OZ and Jennifer Hudson today got me "a big fish"  on their hook.  I love her, he is OK  for a Doctor! . She did it Size 16 to size 6. I take it back she is not a pear shape, got a good look at her on Dr Oz today. She's got some curves and looks great. She is a sparkling star with an enthusiasm I appreciate. I have lost some weight with Jenny Craig but know it is not the long term answer. To tell  you the truth it also comes with a lot of GAS! I have been reluctant to talk about that part but I just can not take it any more! I have run out of matches! Sorry it is a "body " thing and not pretty but a side effect that is a problem. So I filled out the stuff to be part of Dr Oz's transformation and hope to win the million dollar- cue laughter.

Today after work I turned on the TV and jumped into the tub. I could hear them talking  about her success and that of her family.  I found myself stretched out of the tub trying to see the TV in the other room.  I eventually got out and finished watching dripping wet in a towel and started to cry. A good cry a cleansing cry a cry that lead to inspiration and motivation and once again hope.

I got to the computer and checked out Dr Oz's tips and quizzes. After taking the quiz  I was ranked as having an unhealthy life style. I only got one star out of 5!  So I took it again rethinking the answers a bit more and giving myself more credit for some things.  There are many people less healthy than me- surely! .  Either the quiz is BS or I am in denial and am still lost. Which could very well be! Once again I was not given a good report card and only got 2 of a possible 5 stars. I think in order to get a 5 star rating you have to be Jillian Michaels or Amish.

I went to the store and bought 4 of the suggested 20 power foods. Chicken and sweet potato's in the oven as I write. Will also grill some  veggies.

This seems right. It has worked for many people I know and makes sense so I can get the family involved. I have to weigh in at Weight Watchers. It is free right now to join and anyone can get the official weigh in and enter to win the million dollars. I will probably WIN IT!  Silly but kind of fun to day Dream about!  ii HOPE YOU ARE RECOGNIZING SARCASM

Timer just went off. Chicken the size of my palm along with 1cup sweet potato and some grilled veggies!  Breakfast  hmm ???  Oatmeal fruit and yogurt or the last of my Jenny. I am excited about getting to eat what I want! I am excited about cooking. I am trilled to change my family's  diet ( not sure they are)

Need a food scale the rest of the power foods and to get some sleep. Sleep is one of the components of a healthy life style;e and Dr Oz wants us to track it. How do you time how long it takes you to fall asleep- think about it.
 

Saturday a danger day for me

Everyone is asleep or listening to music. It is quiet and I have a moment to myself. The scale has been kind and has reacted  to 2 days of Jenny food positively. Down nearly 3 lbs already. Not quite feeling like a water balloon right now but still a little bloated from the holidays. Jenny offers  you a prefixed menu that really tells you when an what to east. It was a good choice in order to get back on track.   I am afraid that I really have no clue as to what a portion size is outside of that. Also I have created a bit of a problem because when I am not on Jenny I sort of celebrate and overindulge.  Any how I made the commitment to stay on her for a while I already forgot the plan!  I will have to reread the post. It went sort of like  get Holiday weight off, introduce a combo of Jenny food and real food than get to real food only. got to the grocery store and have fruit veggies and milk products ready and planned. You do ad these items to the menu. They help get you into even thinking about them because without them you starve.

I am happy to see Paula Dean's new direction. I think deep fried mac and cheese sound like  a precursor for angioplasty. I am happy for her. Her son is kind of hot too I look forward to seeing him give her recipes make overs. I do fear that she will lose weight her cheeks will hit her shoulders and we will get to witness yet another celebrity morph them selves into something odd . I think she will end up looking like Tammy F.  or Mickey R. or Bruce Jenner!

Jennifer Hudson ads are starting to bug me. She is a total pear shape. You can hide a lot when you are a pear. I am a total apple shape. Everything goes to the mid section. Hate it! I have not entered the world of buying things and having them tailored. I think that is what you have to do when you are a pear. How the hell do you find pants that are small enough in the waist and large enough for  a true  ka-dunk-a-dunk?  I also wonder how people with tiny bodies and big fake boobs find clothes. Maybe they just shop at forever 21.
I hate that store. Intrigued by cheap prices but they really outfit our young girls into wanna be back round rap video dancers. I am one of several Mom's fighting in front of that damn store trying to keep their teenagers out of it.  they should just put a boxing ring for Mom's and daughter right in front of it. duke it out whoever wins get to chose the store. My daughter has totally rejected the Gap says it is not her style.

Well going to visit the horse today the horse that will never be named Justin Bieber! maybe Mic or Jimmy or Robert Plant but not Justin "anything"

Oh shit a football analogy!

So at the official weigh in of the New Year I officially gained more weight than any other person at Jenny over the Holidays. Gotta be number 1 at something.  So here is the plan. I usually pick and chose Jenny food and make my own menu. This time I went with their suggested menu  It will force me to eat things that are new to me  and keep the program fresh. I will do Jenny for 20 or so pounds and then move on to  a combo of their food and real food and eventually all real food.  I will keep my food diary and get back to yoga walking and my bike. Back to the routine. Back to basics. The challenge,  the damn 49ers have to be in the playoffs! At least their are less games than baseball! Most diets you lose a ton the first week. I believe that I am a water balloon right now as the majority of the weight gain jumped on the last few days after Jack brought home those little fried  shoe string potatoes. I had an affair with the lot of them and now they reside in the form of puffy eyes  hands and feet.  No one said this would be easy  I really almost did not go back to Jenny but earned $100 off the food and I can not resist a bargain. In one week things should be a bit better. I failed but not totally! It is like it is the second half of the game and I had a bad 2cd quarter but kicked ass in the first. With the break comes renewed strategy and motivation I am down by a field goal it is not a land slide for fat sugar and booze.  I will kick ass in the second half navigating the field of life. I will dodge the lures of junk food, pivot and side step around that bottle of wine, hurdle over cheese. With all that running I will be active and healthy. I am still in the game and there is time on the score board and I feel lucky. I am putting some money on myself. Who cares what the odds are I do feel lucky PUNK!

Outlets- Music, writing and writing  and writing!

Going to see a lady about a horse today. Going to see the horse too!